Our Graduations

This is gonna be another short post, even after so many months since my last post.

I think I didn't really 'felt' like I've graduated, until my bestie Bobo (who is the last one to graduate among us, thanks to their weird uni schedule) is going through her convocation over this weekend.

For so many years since secondary school, we've been going through exams and school dramas together until we need to go on separate ways for uni.

I still remember when I first accepted the offer from my uni and found out that we were gonna start a whole new journey without each other (and to worsen it, across the sea), I was so reluctant to do all my preparations for uni alone. 

I went through first time boarding on a plane, going through uni orientation, talking to people (yea it's a very big deal to me okay #sociallyawkwardpenguin.jpg), and just living my schooling life without them. I remember it felt like my big sisters who were always there to take care of me can no longer be there, and I'll have to do this on my own. 

It was really tough. And I'm sure they felt the same.

I remember my first few days in Labuan, I'd cry whenever I missed them. And that I couldn't be there for them too. 

They'd call me sometimes (ok honestly most of the time..ok honestly honest, ALL the time #ashamed) to talk about life and get me to talk about mine too (because somehow I am always able to live a boring unhappening life so I don't really know what to talk about sobzz). When I was at my most helpless phase doing the dreadful FYP, they gave me strength to go on. They never make me feel left out even though I was ten thousand miles away from them. And by talking to them I felt like being home. With family :)

Well I guess through different ups and downs, knowing new people and learning new things, we got through our last phase of schooling life.

So, Happy Convocation to all of us! Ok especially to Bobo! :)

God's Blessing

I feel like I should blog this down so I'll always remember God's grace and blessing. It's more for my own sake but I hope it reminds you of how much God loves us.

Last Sunday night I wasn't sleeping so well. Also, that was the only time I didn't mute my phone after so long since uni time (really hate anything that disturbs my sleep at night =| ). I tossed and turned, fell asleep and woke up a few times in the middle.

Finally around 6am or so, I felt like I really couldn't continue sleeping anymore. I was so tired though coz I didn't get enough sleep.

Suddenly my phone rang. My first thought was that "why is my alarm ringing so early? It was still dark outside!". I quickly picked it up before it wakes my roommates up.

As I was attempting to snooze my alarm, I realised it was actually my mum calling me. Before I could answer, it was cut off. My heart started feeling extremely uneasy because I've heard alot of people saying midnight calls are usually bad news.

Before I call my mum back, I prayed for God's strength so that I was able to handle whatever that was coming for me. I've also said a little prayer of protection for my family.

I anxiously called my mum to find out what was going on, only to know that my dad got into an accident on his way back from Ipoh to PJ. Thank God he wasn't hurt at all, just that the car was spoilt. He needed my help to reload for him so that he could call for help from his colleague as it was company's car.

So at the end of the day he was fine and car was fixed, but my grandma was admitted to the hospital at the same day itself. And that my dad told me my mum was not feeling well over the last weekend, broke into cold sweat and stuff. I also found that twin no.1 who is now working in Sg fell sick. Adding to that, I had an extremely horrible week at work that I found it really hard to get by.

My life is not exactly in a good shape right now (so as my body lol #duno-wats-the-relevance-but-die-die-also-must-mention). But everytime I remember how God answered my prayer in His own way, I'm reminded that He is in control and we will never be tested beyond our capability.That alone gives me the strength to wake up every morning and tell myself "I can do this because God said so".

Thank God I have my cousins looking after my grandma in the hospital and share my mum's burden. They are younger than me and I felt sorry having to put them through the trouble of taking such a good care of my grandma while I'm just sitting here blogging about it. Also I have bunch of crazy colleagues sharing all the crazy stuff going in the office (although reluctantly lol) so it is easier to bear.

We'll always be discouraged and disappointed by something or someone at some point of our life. That's just a part of life that we must endure, so that we can be a better and stronger person, not just for ourselves but also for people around us.

So don't give up hoping for the best. If today sucks, tomorrow is a new day to start anew. If tomorrow sucks too, the day after tomorrow is another brand new day. Never stop fighting everyday to make things better.

Have a good day ahead yo!

Anyeong!

Hi dear readers (or nobody wtf)! I'm back!

Looking back at my old posts, I realised time really flies in a blink of an eye. My last post was about GE13 *roll eyes* gosh so outdated.

But I've truly been missing writing stuff and blogging like I used to. I could just talk about everything that's been going on with my life and interact with my probably-non-existed readers by sharing my thoughts. It was really great.

I think the difference now is that, there is nothing going on with my life *cry* and that I honestly don't wana talk about work after working hour. So there, I have zero things to blog about. (inner voice: why don't you just go ahead and tell the truth that you are too lazy for this shit?) Shhhushh inner voice shhhushhh!!!

Anyways, life's been pretty much a roller coaster ride for me these few months. My deadly weakness aka social awkwardness was put to test at the maximum extent.

One major stereotypes I have on working in IT field is that we will face the computer screen 24/7. But fml that it is not applicable at my current job. Everytime I was asked to deal with clients, my inner voice will go "说好的face computer screen 24/7呢??" (translation: where is the face-computer-screen-24/7 moment that was promised?). Not only that I must not show any sign of social awkwardness, I must also blend in some professionalism. How la?!

Second is that I was dragged to a Christian young adult camp by the bf n sister. Omfg human, human everywhere. I was really tensed all the time and my leg involuntarily shake (fyi it was in typical uncle's style) whenever people talk to me. I was like "please don't talk to me and try to make me feel belonged tqvm plz plz plz" but of course everybody was really nice to me and hence awkwardness level went up to 999 T.T. Thank God for bf's sister for staying right beside the whole time and steal conversation from me (I wun feel offended at all plz keep doing that tqvm lololol) and thanks to bf for his promise that his sister will stay with me all the time #useless-bf-just-wana-hv-fun-on-his-own

I guess I'm lucky to have my girl friends to hangout with (no idea why I was always socially aweaome in front of them that they don't believe I have social awkwardness issue) and #soulmate who is equally awkward and hence understand me hehe.

So yea I'm struggling but doing my best not to let it affect how I live my life. #rocker-hand-sign

Oh yea, did I mention I'm a major Kpop fan now? Hehehe oh yes I've changed.

See you soon!

The Civil Duty

No word can describe how I feel right now at this moment.

Few months ago when I officially joined my current company, my dedicated supervisor brought me to the post office near my office to register as a voter. Today I am filled with gratitude for his action and because of him, I was able to cast my vote and contribute to the political revolution which is happening right now.

And thanks to my colleague aka coursemate, JW who educated me all about the current issues and political news, about parlimen structure whatsoever (which we've learnt in Form 6 but I remember none of it #shame).

They both taught me why is it important to know, and to vote. It is not about whether it concerns you, it is about justice (like how you admire the Avengers, Iron Man all that heroes). I'm extremely disgusted by the very fact that some Malaysians can be bought off by monetary promises. But at the same time, think about all the other Malaysians who stood up for justice and plead for clean election, doing their duty to make sure justice is served.

I'm so awed.

No matter what happened tonight, I know that justice is right there. And we don't need superhero for that.

May the end of the day brings a better tomorrow.

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我听着她说，关于痛苦的一切。

听着听着，我在想，她的感受，我能懂几成？

然后海啸的来临，改变了我。

她说过，家人健在，有爱人宠爱，朋友成群，工作顺利，可是痛苦还是可以从坚固的围墙一点一点地渗进来，让她无处可逃。明明万千宠爱于一身，有什么资格说很痛苦？

而我，在这一刻，感同身受。

Happy Birthday to you aka LANCI Fong!

I wana take this opportunity to ss wish you a very Happy Birthday by singing to you one of your favourite songs, which was your ringtone, your non-stop-replay song during that time, and which it drove me crazy HAHAHA.

Nah, Happy Birthday to you, LCF!

HAHAHA!

Update:

Walao this girl really lanci! Sing half song she didn't accept, demanded full song instead. Had to quickly re-sing in case it is past 12am.

And I just realised I really didn't gave her much patience when she just wouldn't stop singing/playing this song. Because I didn't know the last part of the song (because I would either cut her off or blast my own song hahaha), as if I've never heard it before LOL. Sorry ah I 慎重地向你讲soli! Hahaha Happy Birthday! 18 forever!

Holy Week post 1#

Owh my goodness gracious I haven't been blogging for like a month @@

As usual there is nothing going on with my life. It's just work, Running Man, and sleep. But I do have something that I wana share.

This week is the Holy Week in Christian's calendar, which is the week before Easter. I didn't really take it seriously until today, when it suddenly came to me that I've been living in bliss and blessings.

Because I have all the people I've ever cared about around me. And I thank God for that.

I dunno what's wrong with me but I've always been the kind of person who yearns for good relationship with people whom I care about (maybe that's why I'm socially awkward when it comes to socializing, because I simply didn't care about them LOL #self-discovery). When things go wrong in a relationship, I'd feel as if the world is crumbling down around me. Seriously it really does make me feel that way.

And then I told myself I must grow up and grow out of this. I can't be expecting mutual love from everybody I care about because we are all different individuals with differences (and that person might not want my affection anyway lololol).  Might as well just give up trying so hard just to keep a relationship real and genuine.

But then I asked myself, why should I give up the ability to love for a person who doesn't appreciate love? Love itself is beautiful and not wrong.

So instead of not trying, I try even harder by not trying too hard HAHAHA confusing anot! I wouldn't say I am doing a great job, but I'm working on it, and it's been going great.

For example, I didn't know my best friend whom I've known for 11 years dislike loh mai fan (translation: glutinous rice) and went ahead and bought her that as breakfast. She gave it away to someone else wtf and told me she would have eaten if it is apam balik (do not hesitate to google this yourself wtf). Normally the tried-too-hard me will emo for a long time wondering why can't she just accept my offer. But the new and improved me (cheh wahh) sulked for 5 seconds (literally) and moved on happily knowing a new thing about her.

If there is no love, I would have thought that she is a person who is lack of social grace (chinese: 不会做人) and rejected her in my heart. Or if I try to hard, I would be upset that she doesn't accept what I did for her and end up having thorn in my heart.

All these are possible because of God. God himself is love, and He loves me so much that I am also able to love. Nothing is perfect and smooth in life but through these rough patches and difficult times, God made sure I can grow and learn, to love a little more and unconditionally.

Without me realizing, I have all these people whom I cared so much giving me so much blessings and love.

Honestly, I'm so blessed.

Thank you God, for giving me the ability to love, and actually believe in love.

Being a Filial Daughter

First, I was forced to ffk (aka bailed on) dinner with Bo and JH because I had to go support my mum on her singing competition. MY GAWD IT WAS A DISASTER!

Ok if you're a Malaysian (or to narrow it down, a Ipoh-ian), you would know many Chinese senior citizens put in a lot of effort on singing. So there is this society at Menglembu (a town in Perak), they have a singing class for senior citizens. My mum went and joined, and they encouraged her to take part in this singing competition to get experience.

We've heard my mum's singing, and no, we don't wana hear it over the microphone in which her singing will be magnified 10000000 times. HAHAHA. My hater brothers "coincidentally" had outings to go to and couldn't support my mum during the competition day. #Ihatethemsosomuch

So being a filial daughter as I am, I dragged my dad along to support my mum hahaha #filial-only-to-mum. When we reached, he literally pushed me into the crowd and escaped! $%#$%#$%@$# SO SMART! No wonder I am a smart person HAHAHA smart genes from dad.

Anyway, my mum was the 22nd contestant and when I reached, the 8th contestant was singing. MY GOSH MY EARS METAPHORICALLY BLEED OK wtf and I didn't win the lucky draw ish. When it was my mum's turn, my dad came in miraculously to cheer for her. I screamed and clapped so hard until the other contestant aunties stared at me LOL. They were probably jealous =P

After my mum, we found out that there's another 20 contestants to go. Without second thought, we immediately say goodbye to my mum and go home hahaha because she went with another car to my cousin's house for make up. Thanks ar jie jie! They dressed me up for most of my important events one #bow

So yea..I am a filial daughter.

The Effect of Working Life

My gosh work is really straining all of my energy!

Everyday I come back from work I just stare blankly into my future computer screen and turn off my brain. #ultimate-zombie-mode

Actually it's not like I know more and can do more, it's just that the amount of my usual simple task has increased. Boss has been pestering me about upgrading my skills because I've been working for half a year and I'm still at the same place as I was when I just started fml fml fml.

I have to admit I am having a really tough time juggling all my work and my duties. Maybe because I didn't have working experience with ADULTS lololol #private-tutor's-first-world-problem. You know how we get butterflies in our stomach when we are anxious? I feel that every night before I go to sleep. I am just so anxious about what will happen the next day, and whether or not I can handle it. It's been going on for a while and so I have to do something about it.

How?

Now I wake up every morning thinking about how much I've grew since the day before, and how I can grow more today.

Because, sedikit sedikit, lama lama jadi bukit! (continue rocking my awesome Malay language woot woot)

Hees

Project 365: 141/365

There was a man.

And a woman, with mental retardation.

They met, got married despite the objection from both families, and had two kids.

As soon as the kids were born, they were taken away from them because there is no way the couple can raise the kids with their financial situation and the fact that the woman needs special care.

The man lived his life in poverty but he never stopped working hard, and caring the people he treasured. Now that this woman came into his life, it never occurred to him that she is a burden. He brings her to work, take care of her and stand up for her when everybody else despise her.

Well it is not easy. Bringing her to work caused him to lost a few jobs. Taking care of her takes up so much of his energy. And the constant mockery from his close ones is also too overwhelming.

"See how miserable he is!"

"Being a wife is to take care of the family and she couldn't even manage herself."

"Wonder how they get through everyday.."

Yes he has to listen to all these everyday, and yet..

At the end of the day, when people ask who is she, he'd look into her eyes and say, "she's my partner.". She'd smiled and they'd leave holding hands, as if nothing will ever break them apart.

Who are we to say that they are not happy?

Project 365: 140/365

Woosh I had a fun weekend singing singing and singing!

So as I've mentioned in my previous post, my work got a lot more hectic and so I listen to songs and sing more now for de-stress purpose.

This weekend I managed to jio Deb out for karaoke session, dragging WoonC along with us hahaha. So before the gathering, I went to the mall and shop for CNY card. Nobody sends me CNY card anymore unlike my highschool time, so this year I decided to go old-school style and give out hand-written CNY card.

While shopping, I saw a angel pendant and I immediately thought of Deb. I don't think she would like wearing that but I got it for her anyway HAHAHA because I wanted to give her a gift that represents who she is in my life (time for the big awww moment hahahaha).

Hop over to #soulmate's blog to see how she described my gift in just one pathetic sentence, clearly showing how she disliked my gift but appreciate my effort lololol.

Anyway I'm gonna have a busy week ahead so I have my Ipoh sing k session booked with wc also hahaha de-stress to the maximum extent before cny!

Song of the day for you lovely reader,

I wonder how they managed to put two voices together and blended it in nicely! Tell me which one you like between Rachel (the first girl) or Marley (the second girl)! Oooh the game is on!

Project 365: 139/365

Aw man I've abandoned my writing for a few more days again!

Of course I have legit reasons. Most senior colleagues were relocated so even as juniors, we had to take up more responsibilities. The good ol' times when we just needa do our part (which was a rather light responsibility) and our seniors would stand at the front line, is officially over.

Also, I was sick for a long weekend fml but fortunately whenever I fall sick, my roommates would be having a holiday or something so I'd be left alone in the room, sneezing like nobody's business and accumulate tissue mountain wtf sedikit sedikit lama lama jadi bukit wtf I duno why I quote that idiom, it's not even relevant. Well it was abit pathetic that nobody could take care of me T.T when I lie on the bed with high fever, wanting water but was too weak to go get it, I tossed and turned on the bed suffocating until I had a bit energy to get up and get some water.

And to add to my fml whines, it was my first time to take MC in my entire life, I had to go to a wrong clinic which is not panel clinic, so I had to pay 40bucks for it. 40bucks. 40 freaking bucks. Ooooo no wonder I got sicker after seeing doctor HAHAHA.

But all these are just excuses to me not blogging.

I too wondered why I just couldn't find the urge to blog like I used to anymore. I had so many occasions to talk about, and pictures to show. Sometimes I would encounter some interesting stories too.

But you know what, that's not what I want to write about. That's not how I envisioned my writing to be.

I did not start a blog to write daily diaries. When I first started, I wrote awesome pieces (cheh wah self praise hahaha) like what I think about journalism & broadcasting, exposure to Refuge for the Refugee fellow founders and their awesome passions, etc etc.

It all meant something. It wasn't shallow and it was to challenge you to think, to inspire you on something. I know my writing hasn't come to that level yet, but that is what I was going for, and why I started doing this Project 365.

Anyway, yes I have a lot of due posts that I might never be able to finish. But one day, someday, I'm gonna sit down and outline contents to fill up the dues. It's for myself and it's what I owe to myself.

Till then, chillax ar bro!

HAHAHA

Project 365: 138/365

I have to hold myself back from writing another entry for your dedicated blog author that frequent. 4 times in a month!

Yep, it's me again sweetiepies! Apparently Lynn had fallen sick and couldn't update her blog that often coz what a patient needs most is having good rest.

But then again, I have my own blog to maintain I can't even think of a nice topic to write about already so how will I be able to fill the gap for Lynn leh

No worries fellow readers. I don't simply become a delegate blog author, but when I do... I've gather enough crap stuffs to talk about here lol.

First of all - today is holiday... for people who work in KL! WOOHOO! While you're reading this, dear Lynn is working her ass of in her office. She's one lucky byatch I tell you. Found her soulmate (literally! not me this kind of #soulmate :'( in the early stage of her life, forever top student, didn't have to go through all sorts of interviews to get a job and now she's pretty much a confirmed staff. Unlike me, I'm never a top student, still single at this age (even my sis also paktor jor aih wtf), went through interviews trying to impress people so I could get a job and then only realize I might not be competent enough for the job I'm doing and disappoint people wtf.

Second... I failed to execute what I planned #facepalm.jpg I wanted to go for a movie marathon today (partially to make #soulmate jelly LOL) but I couldn't ajak anyone T___T so I slept till I woke up naturally today ahaha.

Ok! Enough crap... Hop over to my blog to read what I have for everybaday!

xoxo,

Project 365: 137/365

This post is late for approximately ONE MONTH hahaha! I didn't have time to edit the photos until now so..

Hi wc this is for you ar!

We've never celebrated her birthday because it'd fall on school holiday and so nobody cares HAHAHA noooo lahhhhh we were just too young. Please accept my apologies on our ignorance (which is a bliss LOL look at how much we've saved from not getting you present HAHAHA).

Last year (actually it's just one month ago), we finally succumbed to our conscience and decided to throw her a very boring birthday party that involves only cake cutting HAHAHA! And to add to her suay-ness, I forgot that I promised to fetch her to our outing! She came back from work and happily called me up while I was busy slurping spaghetti at Gossip Jazz Lounge with others HAHAHA, Sorray!!

Before we throw her the surprise cake cutting birthday party, we accidentally talked about buying and getting cake and she had no clue at all! So dumbo (or maybe because her birthday has actually passed. that was a belated birthday celebration hahahaha sorray again)!

Anyway, we brought out the cake at her most sloppy time. We were gonna have a sleepover at bobo's place and she was too tired from work that she just lie on the bed like this:

And here comes the cake!

Gracefully cutting the cake!

And of course the inevitable head-pressed-on-the-cake prank! Seriously this should be abolished! I wana eat the uncontaminated cake!

Yeah so we ate the cake afterwards, slacked abit and went to sing k until 3am. Everybody was half dead already LOL talk about partying hard.

Anyway, dear wc:

I wish that you can grow taller and smarter.

Hahahaha please don't kill me! You've always been the most uptight yet responsible person among us, with awesome insights and courage to go after your dreams. All the best in your future undertakings and I know you'll be great! #confident-tone

Thanks for helping me to discover my ultimate noobness in photography LOL! I suck at taking photos no matter how beautiful the scene/model is.

But I shall end this post with the best picture I've taken, EVER!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WC & LOVE YOU SOOOOO MUCH MUACKX!

Project 365: 136/365

Well I gotta say,

I DID NOT PAY TO WATCH A HORROR MOVIE %$#^%#$#@#$@#$@$

Today we wanted to watch movie but we've already watched most of the movies showing in the cinema. Hansel and Gretal: Witch Hunters was the only new movie that we hadn't watch. So to avoid the 7-8pm jam, bf and I decided to watch this at 8pm (and yes he couldn't avoid the jam at the end of the day..at freaking 10.30pm! Seriously KL/PJ people what the hell are you guys doing on the road? LOL).

Anyway, surprised that Wrecked it Ralph is still showing in the cinema!

So we snuck in Chatime (yeah we are badasses like that LOL) and were gonna enjoy the movie, only to see very very horrible scenes like ugly looking witches and blown up bodies (highlight this part to see some spoiler: and disturbing relationship with a Troll named Edward. SERIOUSLY?!).

Conclusion is, I am traumatized T.T.

Project 365: 135/365

How was my Sunday, you asked?

I was busy being an artist uhuh uhuh you heard me!

That Sunday I suddenly missed Deb's voice so I made her sang and record her singing for me. She sang Titanium and the shit song that I mustn't name because people will judge my taste HAHAHA.

And then I made her sang a part of Christine Fan & Rainie Yang's duet by the name of 有你真好. Seriously I don't know how to translate it. "Good to have you"? LOL enlighten me if you have a better name. Anyway I was gonna complete the song by singing another part too.

She took half Sunday to send me the recording and I was like "dude I'm not asking for a studio version, just sing and send that's it".

And I took half day to complete the song HAHAHAHA seriously wey it's not like we want perfection or what! There was just too much distractions!

Anywayyyyyyy, here it is if you want to listen. If you don't, #okay.jpg.



Whoa so ngam SoundCloud displayed my Facebook profile picture and it was with Deb! This must be a sign that we're gonna be the next hit!

*practice signing my signature*

Project 365: 134/365

Hmph! Scumbag bf made me lost my blogging mood loh we went to so many places and took so many pictures but he never give me all those photos until now, that's why I had to stop blogging for a while (inner conscience: I'm just really lazy to think of something to blog about, and there really is not much pictures). Sorry fellow readers!

So he finally sent the picture of a gift that I've recently received with love!

When I went for The Last Stand premier screening last week, #soulmate was also there (to collect the merchandise she won, like-a-freaking-glamorous-boss! I swear she was glowing literally when she received her prize! Or maybe I have cataract @@). We met at Subway with weirdly socially awkward bf who didn't wana meet people (Chinese: 不想见人).

She came with this huge pos laju envelope wtf and held it like a badass the whole time HAHAHA ok la she got put it on the table when she had to gobble down the huge sandwich. Socially awkward bf saw her and was like 'that heels...' LOL #soulmate has a very very very awesome skill walking in super high heels and NEVER complain about the pain. If I wear a pair of shoes with little heels, I would be whining the whole time and if bf walks a bit faster I would go haywire and scream at him saying "dafuq is wrong with you! Can't you see I'm wearing heels!" heik heik heik.

Ok back to the story.

So while we were eating and playing with her new Hello Kitty phone (SUPER JELLYYYYYY!!!!) in which I accidentally held it with my mayonized palm LOLOLOL, she slamber-ly handed the pos laju envelope to me saying "nah your Chinese New Year card". I knew she forgot to post out mine when she went to the post office few days ago, so I also slamber-ly took it and wanted to take out my card from the big envelope, thinking that the envelope was hers and I was only supposed to take my card.

The moment I look into the envelope,

2013 CALENDAR FROM CHEECHINGY ARRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!

I love CheeChingy's illustration but of course the stingy side of me never thought of purchasing merchandise from her hahaha sorrrray!

I was soooooooooo surprised and fell in love with the calendar at first sight. Haters gonna hate but I believe in love at first sight lololol on certain things lah.

The best part is, CheeChingy got write message for me (as per Deb's request!!!) fuyohhhhh suddenly the value of this calendar increased so much that I'm tempted to put it on ebay HAHAHA.

Happy shit la seriously!

And now,

WHAT DO I GET FOR HER IN RETURN!!!!!!!

Damnit Sheldon you're so damn right.

But I'd be glad to give her a little something though. Hee.

Project 365: 133/365

I am exhausted!

Not sure if this is a sign of aging or my metabolism rate has gone lower. Most probably the latter wtf.

I actually do have a lot of things to write about, like my convo trip HAHAHA regret not writing on the spot because I don't really remember what happened, Christmas and new year, and bf's birthday trip to I-City!

Yea yea when I am recharged fully I shall sit my ass down and write it all.

As for now, be prepared to be blown away by my recent favourite:

You know how we would quickly insert Leo Ku(古巨基)'s two long medleys during the last minute of our karaoke session so that even though time is up, we still get to sing another 10 more minutes?

Neh the very own "geng goh gam kok" and "qing ge wang" (the songs' name):

Now I have new medley to sing hees. Rainie Yang is really getting better in her singing and honestly she doesn't have a big voice or anything like that, but I like all the big songs she took on and sang with such serenity.

Seriously you guys care about my artist critics ar? HAHAHA

Project 365: 132/365

Being an adult is all about knowing what to do with our life. And we will only learn to be one when other adults let go of our hands completely and let us walk on our own. Only through hardships and difficulties will we learn to apply our knowledge on problems ahead.

Project 365: 131/365

Ok lah finally had the chance to watch a premier screening won by myself, and witnessed how #soulmate became the glamorous blogger in the midst of so so many more bloggers!

So it was like this. Nuffnang was having this contest to win The Last Stand's premier screening ticket and the top 3 answers would win some movie merchandise.

Well I didn't like that type of movie (alot of fighting and shit like that) and I am not really fancy about winning merchandise with Arnold Schwarzenegger's face on it. So yeah I didn't participate and that's how Deb won the second prize!

Yeah you heard me

And yeah it was fun watching the movie! Bf was weirdly being socially awkward today I have no idea why. At one point him and Deb teamed up against me thank you so much ah for doing that to me wtf.

Anyway tomorrow Imma tell one funny shit story. If not funny then I QIE DIAO~ (cut it off)! Don't ask what 'it' is lololol pun intended.

Project 365: 130/365

As I'm typing this, scumbag #soulmate is sitting at the comfy seats from One Utama cinema, enjoying the premier screening of Mama (mind you Kpop fans, Mama is literally Mama, not Mnet Asian Music Award).

JELLY ARRRR!

I was eyeing this movie when Nuffnang started the contest to win premier screening invites to this show. The question for this contest was:

If you’re a mama , what sort of lullaby would you sing to your kids every night as you tuck them into their beds?

I spent one week studying other contestants' answers and came up with this epic + awesome + impeccable + shameful answer wtf:

Got typo! Last line: sing this in *Baby (by Justin Bieber)'s tune. LOL didn't know how I missed that

Man I can't even look at myself straight now HAHAHA I got trashed by #soulmate for creating this shit but I was just trying to be original mah T.T. Since I sacrificed my dignity by using JB, might as well get something out of it right!

And I did!

I was gloating that I won the prize with my awesome answer but according to scumbag #soulmate, they just had too many passes to give out and the participants were too little, so basically anyone who joined could win. Thanks Deb, thank you so much for stomping on my very very little dignity after giving it all to win this contest.

Anyway, when I read the summary from Nuffnang contest page, I thought it was a movie about how two girls without parents came to accept the new parents in their life. It didn't occurred to me that it is a freaking horror movie!

Horror movie=bf not gonna watch=no ride=no watch T.T

It's my first contest prize and I couldn't even redeem it. WHY, universe, just WHY!

So, no movie for me today and Deb's whole family got to watch the movie instead! Seriously I think she is sucking out all of my contest luck and distribute it to her family. I really think so.

The conclusion is,

No, me is no having fun. #bigbigpout

Project 365: 129/365

写写散文#5

终于，她来到了人生的另一个阶段。

这并不容易，因为国家的政策就是让孩子上幼儿园、小学、中学，路都铺好了，孩子们根本不用想下一步要怎么走。成绩不好却要读大学的都是被政府自由分配进入各个大学，也很少让孩子做自己的决定。现在她出来社会了，自己也不知道自己要进哪一行，只能根据自己在大学里所拿的科系，去找一份同样的工作。

开始上班后，娱乐的时间少了，和朋友聚会的时间也少了。当她得空的时候，朋友却不得空。当朋友得空的时候，又轮到她不得空。除了工作，她的人生好像没有什么值得期待的事情了。

于是，她想到了一个办法 —— 参加有奖游戏。最起码，除了工作，她还能保留一点期待。感觉，赢了奖，好像自己也赢了什么。而且赢来的票还能犒赏自己，何乐而不为？

邮件信箱开始收到一封又一封的得奖通知。她很高兴，有了这些免费的票，朋友们不会再有藉口说没有钱，不能出去玩了吧？或者，不会因为得不到讨论结果，聚会不了了之了吧？

她错了。朋友们还是说，抱歉，不得空。抱歉，不会去。抱歉，没有交通。

拿着赢来的票，不知道该不该自己一个人去兑换。要是真的自己一个人去看戏吃饭，那么她的人生真的要跌到谷底了。

于是她开始努力赚钱，这样就可以买车，然后解决朋友没有交通的问题。

然而，买了车，她必须更努力赚钱，以便偿还贷车的钱。汽油、汽车保险、路税、泊车费、汽车维修，样样都是钱。

她又没有娱乐时间了。

结果努力到了最后，她还是自己一个人。

xoxo,

Project 365: 128/365

写写散文#4

她暮然惊醒！

我在干嘛？！

只见前后人潮多得窒息，把戏院售票处挤得水泄不通。她感觉身后有人推了她一把，厌恶地低声说，“干嘛还不走向前啦！”

我到底在干嘛？

前面的售票小姐亲切的向她招手。她呆了。身后那人提高声音，“小姐，你要买票的吗？”

她似乎下定决心了，大力的吸一口气，搂紧她怀里的包包，抬头挺胸的走向售票柜台。

“两点的xxx，一张票，谢谢。”

售票小姐问，“一张么？好。请问您要哪个位子呢？”

“最中间的那个位子，谢谢。” 她机械式地掏出票钱递给售票小姐。

“好，这是您的票。Enjoy your movie！”

“谢谢。” 她向售票小姐投以感谢的眼神，感谢她对于自己明显的寂寞视若无睹。她不需要同情，也不知道如果被人同情了要怎样。

她走向刚才选了的座位。倒数第四排，荧幕的正中间。不只是因为那是最佳位子，也因为她看到了这一排是几乎满的。她想，穿插在那么多人中间，别人就看不出她的孤独跟狼狈。

为什么到最后，就只剩下我一个人？

终于，电影开始了。这是她第一次自己一个人看电影。身边的位子依然空空如也。只有角落的一对小情侣紧紧地依偎着彼此。

看样子是不来了。连陌生人也要放我飞机吗？

音响轰隆隆的轰炸着耳朵，只见角落的小女生捂住耳朵，柔弱的靠在另一半的身上。她冷眼旁观，麻木的任由耳膜随着音响的节奏而震动。

找一个伴也那么难吗?

她想到约好的朋友竟然在最后一分钟失约，害得自己落单，形单影只地在诺大的购物广场逛街。广场灯火灿烂，许多人经过她的身边，更显得她的影子异常落寞，竟然没有一个像她一样的独行侠。

一个伴和一个朋友，竟然不能划上等号。

朋友她并不缺，知心的也有几个。可能是年纪渐长，每个人都急着长大，独立，希望能够在这个社会中占一席之地。所以无论电影多么地吸引人，无论聚会可以多么地抚慰人心，她身边的人已经对于‘一起出来’这回事，已经失去兴趣。

这个电影真的很好看，你，知道吗？

电影进入故事的高潮，观众们已经深深地被吸引了。她微微的转过头，嘴巴微启，像是要说什么，结果还没开口，便哑然失笑。原来她觉得很好笑的一幕，很想要分享的那一刻，才记得自己是一个人来的。这是第一次，可是她心里明白，这也不会是最后一次了。

电影来到了尾声，又是一贯的圆满结局。小情侣亲密的紧紧依偎着彼此，满足地离开电影院。

原来我自己一个人，也可以好好的。

从电影院出来的她，已经不是刚进去时的那个人。她对于伴的需求，已经没有如此强烈，因为她知道独自一个人的她，也一样可以享受人生。少了无谓的迁就，安排，和失望，竟然带来了一份坦然和自在。

回家吧！

踩着高跟鞋还是可以走路直挺挺的她，和刚才那对小情侣一样，满足的离开了。

Project 365: 127/365

Hi all!

Here's another OOTD(Outfit of the Day) post for you! My model of the day is still Sushii!

Top: Sweet pink tank top with wrinkled details
Botton: High waisted denim shorts

I just realised writing OOTD could be very challenging because we have to know how to describe the outfit @@ man I was suffocating doing research just for this. Well, in case you wana start composing OOTD post, one of the ways is to go to online fashion boutique and read their clothes descriptions for every piece that they are selling. Soon you'll get the hang of it.

Or you can just read my blog HAHAHAHA.

Or you can just ignore this if you're not interested at all T.T

Project 365: 126/365

Ohai sweetiepies!

Looks like your beloved blog author is still busy doing the sacred job huh. What to do, it's not an issue you can fix right away.

Ok lah I volunteer to be her delegate blog author today coz I'm in a good mood! ^_^ Today I'm bringing joy to #soulmate (also to myself) - It's the first day of the first month in this year! Finally after 4-5 months! Woohoo! But no worries fellas, I'm not pregnant thanks for your shocking eyes. *wink #soulmate*

Ok so in my previous delegate entry, I said I will talk more about us. Don't worry this time I'll include some pictures so you won't get bored!

It was our first years when we first knew each other. I was her neighbour for the first 2 months during university life but I moved coz we were staying outside and it's very inconvenient to take bus to and forth to the campus so I moved in to the hostel in the campus illegally :p We got closer during second semester because of an assignment. (Side note: Hey dude, I think our business idea haz to be put aside until we earn sibeh lot money first ah if not we can't sustain leh wtf) And then we got closer coz we formed a crazy family wtf we're too stressed in our uni life please forgive us.

And then! Slowly I found that she's super wise and sees through me wtf I tell you she's the first person I fall in love for wtf Ruel please don't let go of her thanks!

We love her!

Until she's also shocked LOL

And then!

We graduated!

We've been through ups and downs and we have retarded moments together. And because we're compatible that's why we still keep in touch until today. I mean. Other than my jimuis, she's the only one whom I still keeping in touch talking about cock and bulls so unreal it's almost like this:

super fake roller coaster taken in Mac Lab LOL

Ah. The good ol' days.

So fellow readers, since you're reading #soulmate's blog I can safely assume you're are at her age range? Lemme give you a piece of my mind:

I'll be back!

xoxo,

Project 365: 125/365

Greetings, fellow readers!

Today Lynn is busy doing a sacred job - saving her friends from personal issues so she appointed her prestigious #soulmate (chey waa) - ME to be your author of the day! You're very welcome! Feel free to browse my blog! xD

Ok la just joking. I actually typed quite an entry lo but scumbag laptop blue screened and my inspiring stuffs just gone wtf. And look at the time now, I totally have no idea what I just typed #bang-head-on-the-wall

Since #soulmate said Angela wrote a blog post for Aud once and I should be doing so as well since she's not free, I purposely went google what Angela wrote for Aud and then! I found Aud actually called Angela her soulmate #depressed WHY LA AUDREY TOOK ALL THE NICKS LIKE #addiction #soulmate LIKE THAT HOW ARE WE GONNA ADDRESS EACH OTHER ANYMORE!!!

FTS. I don't care la just pretend I didn't see it wtf we're still each other's #soulmate wtf wtf.

And then while I'm typing this, I was trying to order mille crepe online and have it delivered to my company so I can treat my colleagues coz erjie won free vouchers for mille crepes but if I want it to be delivered I need to pay extra 15bucks via paypal wtf. I don't mind paying for extra 15bucks la but why the hell they only provide paypal as the payment method! Damn shit la I have to cancel the order first and register for paypal account. Liddat also nehmind. TMD I didn't know which is the card verification number and then after I keyed in everything and clicked "continue", the system just won't progress! And then the second time I keyed in again it prompt error message telling me the dealer denied my card fml now I might lose a voucher AND my debit card might not be able to use as credit card again wtf. And then I just received an email from my team lead telling me the test case on my project returns wrong results #fliptable HOW CAN THIS EVEN HAPPEN I DON'T EVEN!

Haizzzzz. Please pray everything will be alright.

So I kept saying recently I'm #foreveralone wtf HELLO #soulmate got my hints anot when wanna hang out jek! The last time I saw her was on the 18th of last month at Paradigm Mall thanks to the ticket I won wtf. Eh #soulmate, when is your turn to treat me for a movie ah?

I think #soulmate mentioned before she sang right. Lemme reveal more about that. She can sing sibeh good! Hop over here to read how I think about her voice lolol. Eh #soulmate, I'm listening to the songs we recorded together leh! Sibeh nostalgic. And everytime I heard your part I still puke rainbow!

Hm. So this entry turned out to be my rants and an urge to #soulmate to meet me soon LOL. Buy a car la! Takkan you wanna stay in KJ for your whole life if your bf is not around meh! xD

Ok la that's all for the post. Next time I'll talk more about us k? Muax!

xoxo,

Project 365: 124/365

I have been waiting for this drama to be out since forever!

Summer Fever

To be honest I was attracted to their poster above HAHAHA. And then I went and read summaries about this drama and tadah, you're looking at their number one fan!

I love their story. It's about a sick girl coming to Jin Men(a beautiful place in Taiwan) for a summer break and met the love of her life there. There's a lot more plots but it's for you to discover hee.

Maybe watching too much of American drama screwed up with my head LOL because usually people end up having sex or have sex before getting involved romantically in those drama series. It's been long since the last time I watch a simple love story.

In this drama, the plot develops as the characters got to know each other and understand each other (AND NO SEX lololol) before they are ready to take their relationship to the next step. I can't deny the amount of unnecessary drama is pretty damn high also lah because dude, it's a freaking drama for goodness sake but well..it's all good.

Anyway I laughed and cried together with them(the characters) and I called the main actor 'bro' in my imagination so we are actually kinda close the whole time I was watching this drama. The main actress, Even Wu (aka 鬼鬼吴映洁) is already well known since she was 16 (now she is 24) so I practically followed her news since I was young cheh wah she is only one year older than me HAHAHA. She has always been the blurry and clumsy girl who likes to say and do thing as she likes without thinking too much whoa I made this remark as if I really know her hahahaha. I have always loathed artist who can't act but try very hard to act in a drama while he/she shouldn't have. Before this drama was aired, I was secretly thinking if Even Wu really suck at this, I would be the shallowest person on Earth for watching this drama because I still wana watch it anyway for its storyline. Thank God she didn't disappoint me! She was really awesome in this drama, not at all like a awkward newbie. 

Best thing is, she sang! Whoa I didn't know she can sing actually. The main soul of this drama is the song she sang:

It's simple and catchy. The lyrics is pretty amazing also, linking the happenings in the drama into one song.

And the main surprise is that I thought the song at the beginning of every episode (what do we call that!) is sang by other female singer that I never know, so I never bother to listen. But at one fine day, I stumbled upon an article saying Even Wu's singing skill has improved and she sang two songs for this drama. Then it came to me, WHOA SERIOUSLY? She can actually sound so so nice!

This drama is really worth watching! GO WATCH IT! LOL

Project 365: 123/365

Gosh. Right after I realised readers are only attracted to posts with Sushii in it, leaving my hard-composed posts abandoned, I lost my blogging motivation for a while. By 'a while' I meant one whole week HAHAHA there goes my Project 365.

I don't think anybody notice though. Of course except for that celaka sial #soulmate #@^$% keep picking on me for what! Nobody wants to read my crap also! *throws tantrum*

Anyway, le bf went back home so I'd have to spend my Friday night (which is right now..ok I know it is past 12 so no more Friday, but a day is only over when I fall asleep #defensive) and half of my Saturday. For once I can sleep till the sun burns my butt on Saturday, so might as well make my liver explode (aka 暴肝) now. LOL

The night is pretty damn lonely when everybody is asleep.

Good night! By 'good night' I really mean Good Morning wtf

Project 365: 122/365

写写散文#3

03/01

尘封已久的回忆，被这个日期像锐利的刀片一样狠狠地割开了。只能无助地接收在脑中散开一地的回忆。

那些年，疯狂的我们。
那些年，无话不谈的我们。
那些年，因为不能见面而争取所有机会webcam的我们。
那些年，守候在电话旁边静静倾听哭泣声的我们。
那些年，就算不是排在对方心里的第一位，也一定是最重要那一位的我们。
那些年，起了小口角就说分开，但五分钟后就后悔，哭着说怕永远都失去对方的我们。
那些年，为了对方另一半而争风吃醋的我们。
那些年，经过生活经历的洗礼而改变了的我们。
那些年，我不了解你，你也不谅解我的我们。
那些年，苦苦等你信息的七天。
那些年，放弃等你信息的半个月。
那些年，无视我的等待的你。
那些年，说你想我的你。
那些年，你愤怒说出分开的那一刻。
那些年，哭着说分开就分开的我。

年轻的思想总是会为未来带来一些遗憾。或许只有我不能释怀，不能面对，而把你和我们的回忆放在心里最深处，永远都不敢碰触。

或许这段人生插曲改变了我，让我无法谅解不能好好沟通，生气就不说话，受了伤就放弃一段感情的人。

因为，这样就像一种背叛，像是在告诉我之前建立的感情都是假的，你巴不得要离开我。

人家说，每个人都有他自己的死穴。我想，这就是我的死穴。偏偏这死穴常常被戳中。

无论如何，现在的我更懂得珍惜感情，懂得努力守候一段感情。

03/01

嘿！生日快乐。

Project 365: 121/365

I miss the Church of the Holy Savior in Labuan!

This is my favourite worship song during the time I was attending that church. =)

The God I Know (by City Harvest Church)
When the stage is bare tonight
There's no one else
Just You and me
When the curtains close behind
There's no pretense
I'm on my knees

I will lay down my life
For the love sacrifice
You gave to me
It's all because of You
All because of You

The God I know
Righteous and Holy
The God I know
Faithful and true
The God I know
My tower of refuge
Hearts are healed
Christ revealed

The God I know
Light of the City
The God I know
Strengthens the weak
The God I know
Your heart beats within me
As You are, so are we

This is my cry
My one desire
More of You
More of You

The church He knows
Righteous and Holy
The church He knows
Is faithful and true
The church He knows
A tower of refuge
Hearts are healed
Christ revealed

The church He knows
Light of this city
The church He knows
Strengthens the weak
The church He knows
Is strong and mighty
As He is, so are we

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Matthew 11:28

Then Jesus said, “Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest.

So place your worries and loneliness and brokenness on God. You're not alone. =)

Project 365: 120/365

Finally watched Les Misérables awwww yeahhh!

Remember I went through a lot of hassle just to watch this musical in movie? When I couldn't get the premier screening ticket, I was like 'screw this I'm not gonna pay to watch it!'. Now, I would like to laugh at myself (HAHAHA YOU FOOL) wtf that's just crazy.

But then I was like 'screw this! This is the closest I'm gonna get to watch a musical production since I might never make it to Broadway to watch the real deal!'. And so, I bought it (the movie ticket), watched it (the movie) and LOVE IT (everything about the movie oh yeah I do)!

Ok la I can't deny their singing is not perfect like the Pitch Perfect fellas (bitchplease I used Pitch Perfect as benchmark only because it rhymes ar please take note. Glee is always the best!). At the beginning of the show I was puzzled why they didn't use casts who can actually act and sing too. But when Hugh Jackman sang in the church (don't wana spoil it too much for you), whoa! I understood why they were there in the movie, not anybody else.

Gosh you should watch this movie and experience all kinds of mixed feelings expressed in songs and music. I was very impressed that they actually sang live while acting. Even Glee couldn't do that. Yea it was a bit pitchy and all, but man it was also so raw and REAL! The singing mixed with their awesome acting, that's the perfect combination!

Come to think of it, maybe if the singing was perfect, it wouldn't portray the brokenness and sorrow of the characters. Fuyoh I just made a clever remark #clap&cheer-for-self

I came out from the cinema with tears on my face. I see alot of people wiping their face while walking out from the cinema too so it is not just me okay! Seriously lah you should watch it if you haven't, PROVIDED IF YOU ARE INTO MUSICAL. Enjoy the awesome ride!