Being a Filial Daughter

First, I was forced to ffk (aka bailed on) dinner with Bo and JH because I had to go support my mum on her singing competition. MY GAWD IT WAS A DISASTER!

Ok if you're a Malaysian (or to narrow it down, a Ipoh-ian), you would know many Chinese senior citizens put in a lot of effort on singing. So there is this society at Menglembu (a town in Perak), they have a singing class for senior citizens. My mum went and joined, and they encouraged her to take part in this singing competition to get experience.

We've heard my mum's singing, and no, we don't wana hear it over the microphone in which her singing will be magnified 10000000 times. HAHAHA. My hater brothers "coincidentally" had outings to go to and couldn't support my mum during the competition day. #Ihatethemsosomuch

So being a filial daughter as I am, I dragged my dad along to support my mum hahaha #filial-only-to-mum. When we reached, he literally pushed me into the crowd and escaped! $%#$%#$%@$# SO SMART! No wonder I am a smart person HAHAHA smart genes from dad.

Anyway, my mum was the 22nd contestant and when I reached, the 8th contestant was singing. MY GOSH MY EARS METAPHORICALLY BLEED OK wtf and I didn't win the lucky draw ish. When it was my mum's turn, my dad came in miraculously to cheer for her. I screamed and clapped so hard until the other contestant aunties stared at me LOL. They were probably jealous =P

After my mum, we found out that there's another 20 contestants to go. Without second thought, we immediately say goodbye to my mum and go home hahaha because she went with another car to my cousin's house for make up. Thanks ar jie jie! They dressed me up for most of my important events one #bow

So yea..I am a filial daughter.

The Effect of Working Life

My gosh work is really straining all of my energy!

Everyday I come back from work I just stare blankly into my future computer screen and turn off my brain. #ultimate-zombie-mode

Actually it's not like I know more and can do more, it's just that the amount of my usual simple task has increased. Boss has been pestering me about upgrading my skills because I've been working for half a year and I'm still at the same place as I was when I just started fml fml fml.

I have to admit I am having a really tough time juggling all my work and my duties. Maybe because I didn't have working experience with ADULTS lololol #private-tutor's-first-world-problem. You know how we get butterflies in our stomach when we are anxious? I feel that every night before I go to sleep. I am just so anxious about what will happen the next day, and whether or not I can handle it. It's been going on for a while and so I have to do something about it.

How?

Now I wake up every morning thinking about how much I've grew since the day before, and how I can grow more today.

Because, sedikit sedikit, lama lama jadi bukit! (continue rocking my awesome Malay language woot woot)

Hees

Project 365: 141/365

There was a man.

And a woman, with mental retardation.

They met, got married despite the objection from both families, and had two kids.

As soon as the kids were born, they were taken away from them because there is no way the couple can raise the kids with their financial situation and the fact that the woman needs special care.

The man lived his life in poverty but he never stopped working hard, and caring the people he treasured. Now that this woman came into his life, it never occurred to him that she is a burden. He brings her to work, take care of her and stand up for her when everybody else despise her.

Well it is not easy. Bringing her to work caused him to lost a few jobs. Taking care of her takes up so much of his energy. And the constant mockery from his close ones is also too overwhelming.

"See how miserable he is!"

"Being a wife is to take care of the family and she couldn't even manage herself."

"Wonder how they get through everyday.."

Yes he has to listen to all these everyday, and yet..

At the end of the day, when people ask who is she, he'd look into her eyes and say, "she's my partner.". She'd smiled and they'd leave holding hands, as if nothing will ever break them apart.

Who are we to say that they are not happy?

Project 365: 140/365

Woosh I had a fun weekend singing singing and singing!

So as I've mentioned in my previous post, my work got a lot more hectic and so I listen to songs and sing more now for de-stress purpose.

This weekend I managed to jio Deb out for karaoke session, dragging WoonC along with us hahaha. So before the gathering, I went to the mall and shop for CNY card. Nobody sends me CNY card anymore unlike my highschool time, so this year I decided to go old-school style and give out hand-written CNY card.

While shopping, I saw a angel pendant and I immediately thought of Deb. I don't think she would like wearing that but I got it for her anyway HAHAHA because I wanted to give her a gift that represents who she is in my life (time for the big awww moment hahahaha).

Hop over to #soulmate's blog to see how she described my gift in just one pathetic sentence, clearly showing how she disliked my gift but appreciate my effort lololol.

Anyway I'm gonna have a busy week ahead so I have my Ipoh sing k session booked with wc also hahaha de-stress to the maximum extent before cny!

Song of the day for you lovely reader,

I wonder how they managed to put two voices together and blended it in nicely! Tell me which one you like between Rachel (the first girl) or Marley (the second girl)! Oooh the game is on!

Project 365: 139/365

Aw man I've abandoned my writing for a few more days again!

Of course I have legit reasons. Most senior colleagues were relocated so even as juniors, we had to take up more responsibilities. The good ol' times when we just needa do our part (which was a rather light responsibility) and our seniors would stand at the front line, is officially over.

Also, I was sick for a long weekend fml but fortunately whenever I fall sick, my roommates would be having a holiday or something so I'd be left alone in the room, sneezing like nobody's business and accumulate tissue mountain wtf sedikit sedikit lama lama jadi bukit wtf I duno why I quote that idiom, it's not even relevant. Well it was abit pathetic that nobody could take care of me T.T when I lie on the bed with high fever, wanting water but was too weak to go get it, I tossed and turned on the bed suffocating until I had a bit energy to get up and get some water.

And to add to my fml whines, it was my first time to take MC in my entire life, I had to go to a wrong clinic which is not panel clinic, so I had to pay 40bucks for it. 40bucks. 40 freaking bucks. Ooooo no wonder I got sicker after seeing doctor HAHAHA.

But all these are just excuses to me not blogging.

I too wondered why I just couldn't find the urge to blog like I used to anymore. I had so many occasions to talk about, and pictures to show. Sometimes I would encounter some interesting stories too.

But you know what, that's not what I want to write about. That's not how I envisioned my writing to be.

I did not start a blog to write daily diaries. When I first started, I wrote awesome pieces (cheh wah self praise hahaha) like what I think about journalism & broadcasting, exposure to Refuge for the Refugee fellow founders and their awesome passions, etc etc.

It all meant something. It wasn't shallow and it was to challenge you to think, to inspire you on something. I know my writing hasn't come to that level yet, but that is what I was going for, and why I started doing this Project 365.

Anyway, yes I have a lot of due posts that I might never be able to finish. But one day, someday, I'm gonna sit down and outline contents to fill up the dues. It's for myself and it's what I owe to myself.

Till then, chillax ar bro!

HAHAHA

Project 365: 138/365

I have to hold myself back from writing another entry for your dedicated blog author that frequent. 4 times in a month!

Yep, it's me again sweetiepies! Apparently Lynn had fallen sick and couldn't update her blog that often coz what a patient needs most is having good rest.

But then again, I have my own blog to maintain I can't even think of a nice topic to write about already so how will I be able to fill the gap for Lynn leh

No worries fellow readers. I don't simply become a delegate blog author, but when I do... I've gather enough crap stuffs to talk about here lol.

First of all - today is holiday... for people who work in KL! WOOHOO! While you're reading this, dear Lynn is working her ass of in her office. She's one lucky byatch I tell you. Found her soulmate (literally! not me this kind of #soulmate :'( in the early stage of her life, forever top student, didn't have to go through all sorts of interviews to get a job and now she's pretty much a confirmed staff. Unlike me, I'm never a top student, still single at this age (even my sis also paktor jor aih wtf), went through interviews trying to impress people so I could get a job and then only realize I might not be competent enough for the job I'm doing and disappoint people wtf.

Second... I failed to execute what I planned #facepalm.jpg I wanted to go for a movie marathon today (partially to make #soulmate jelly LOL) but I couldn't ajak anyone T___T so I slept till I woke up naturally today ahaha.

Ok! Enough crap... Hop over to my blog to read what I have for everybaday!

xoxo,