Project 365: 10/365

If Xena is warrior princess, then I am princess worrier.

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It rhymes! #proud

So I've been told that I am too anxious about things and worry too much. I was like OMFG YOU HAVE CAT TO BE KITTEN ME MEOW wtf because I have always been the most chillax person among other people.

Thanks to the serious tone (which frightened me a little T.T) I am now examining myself. It seems that I've been living my life worrying about things consciously (by constant whining) and unconsciously, that I don't know how to stop worrying anymore.

If things are messed up, I can never be at peace until it is dealt with. If nothing is going on, I will worry whether or not something bad is coming up. And when I say I worry unconsciously, it means my worries are constantly expressed by my surrounding peers, that I don't even have to voice it out (making it as if I damn chill but actually I'm not HAHAHA).

Look back at my final year project period, it was definitely the darkest moment of my life. I was worried I can't graduate with my friends (that I avoided talking about convocation and I cried whenever cy said we must graduate together. wtf, brain?), can't meet the deadline, can't please my partner, can't work out a function, and all that stuff. I was so gloomy I just wanted to sit in my room and do my stuff all day long. And when I leave the room for dinner at cy's place I just dun feel like going back to my room. I had the drive to work for the better but my emotion state kept me from doing better. I was just so depressed.

Haiz I can't even write about that moment without feeling the heaviness. Because it was really unpleasant. Anyway when it was over, I felt like a pulled string let loose. So I slacked my ass off and hence the result #facepalm

So lemme do a pros and cons of worrying for you.

Pros: None.
Cons: A lot. HAHAHA damn lazy to list it out

Fine fine. Affecting your performance, depression, affecting relationships etc are the cons of worrying.

I believe in moderation (and Jesus, btw). We can always be worried a little (showing that we care and wana do something about it), whine a little (to express feelings and not bottle it up) and slack a little (to stop and take a rest). The key is A LITTLE. When it becomes too much, it will only do harm and no good at all.

So can you worry only a little?
Whine only a little?
Slack only a lttle?

My advice for you and myself: If you can't, you shouldn't do it at all.