Project 365: 49/365

I'm sick.

Please bear with my sick talk.

I've been having sore throat and flu these two days. But it's weekend yo! I didn't want to waste my weekend, so I took Max (from "2 Broke Girls)'s advice:

We man up, grow a pair, and stare germs at their face! This is the fries from the man who couldn't stop coughing. *eat* BOO YEAH!

And that's what I did.

When I felt unwell I will tell myself it is all just in my mind..I can use my brain to control my body..

How well it worked, you asked?

I am damn fking sick and feel so miserable now.

So please don't copy.

Thank you.

Gotta go back to being miserable.

Bye.

Project 365: 48/365

I wanted to do something different this weekend but bf being inco-operative, didn't went along with my hard-planned plan celaka betul so we went back doing the same old stuff..you know..movie and food #boring

The universe heard my crying and gave us an awesome encounter! #successkid.jpg

So as we were trolling in KLCC, we stumbled upon an art exhibition. Being a cheapskate and kampung-ish as I am, since the admission was free, we went ahead to check it out.

It was the 'i Art you Malaysia' art exhibition. I gotta say Malaysia does have great great talented artists walking among us. The painting and art works were really great. Since the theme is related to Malaysia, the art works were historical and ancient-based.

I did see some mainstream 'art' work. You know..the kind that splash painting on it and call the pattern artistic? No offence yo your work might be great but I'm just too shallow to get it hahaha.

So..yay to today's outing! French style ftw! Hehehe

Project 365: 47/365

SPOILER ALERT!

If you're a "Grey's Anatomy"'s fan, and you have yet to watch the latest episode, DO NOT CONTINUE READING.

Or if you're not a fan and you don't give a damn, please do give a damn wtf.

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I've been chasing "Grey's Anatomy" for years, and it was already very professional when it comes to medical stuff, even before it became mainstream (yea I'm hinting about TVB's "On Call 36 Hours" come on la that's just a bad replica of "Grey's Anatomy wtf wtf I hereby apologize to all the fans please don't hate on me for I was just expressing my humble opinion even though we have different perspective about my humility #coward).

I duno why people just wouldn't give it a try. My boss caught me watching during lunch time, asked me what series I was watching, I told him and he just sneered and walked off T.T I am shallow but doesn't mean this series is too T.T

So this episode is about death, lost, and the feeling that it'll never be the same again.

Sometimes when someone/something is missing, we can't get back to the same way as before. We've grown too accustomed to the way it was, not knowing how to proceed when changes come.

Just like what happened in this episode. We had to let Mark go, had to accept Lexie is dead, had to look at how devastated Arizona is with her disabled leg, and we had to witness how the greatest neuro surgeon was destroyed by his numb hand.

How do we live with it, when one day, everything feels different for us?

Some people chose to think "things will only get worse" and keep this thought whenever they experience new things in life or meet someone new.

Some people just brush it off and numbly move on.

And some just couldn't take the pressure.

There's a standard saying which is supposed to comfort us:

This is life. It'll get better. So just be strong, and move on.

But seriously, who on Earth can do that? We all know it is always easier to say than to do.

But again, even such a simple sense we can't take it and apply it in our life, what more can we say?

Haha I don't know how to end this post. Because I'm just as lost as them.

But dear Mark, goodbye. It's been six great years with you. =)

Project 365: 46/365

Have you ever experienced living under somebody's shadow?

A sibling who's almost perfect in every way?
A friend who appear to be more attractive?
A colleague who outperformed you?

Let's check the symptoms:

1) Feel like what you do is always NOT GOOD ENOUGH.
2) Constantly demotivated when you need to do something because someone else will surely do it better.
3) Only do what others are doing and want what others have.
4) Always admire somebody else's achievement.
5) When you finally achieve something, you think it is not because of your capability, but luck. Or the absence of the other person.

So that's what the bloody shadow does to us. It makes us feel like a lower person, always having less good quality compared to other people. But here's the keyword, COMPARISON.

A great mind (HAHAHA!) once told me, comparing yourself to other people is not only not healthy, but disastrous to your own self-esteem. How true! We would constantly put ourselves down because our mind has played a trick on us to bring another person up. It's like a mental disease, blocking your mind to look at yourself and just yourself.

We are taught to compare since we were young.

Having 100% is better than having 99% in a test paper.
Being the top is better than being the first runner up.
Being slim is better than being plump.
Having 3k salary is better than 2k (at some point this statement is true #skeptical).

But seriously, WHO THE HELL CARES! (alright I got you..you can put down your hand..#okay.jpg)

No seriously, why do we have to be BETTER THAN SOMEBODY in order to be good? Every single individual is special in our own ways.

If you have the symptoms above, know that you are strong enough to take the sun's heat directly, instead of hiding behind somebody else's shadow! You might find that the sunlight is actually warming, and you will feel really good to be on your own. There is a whole new world, whole new perspective for you to explore, instead of looking at someone's back all the time, thinking this is the best that you can get.

All the best! =D

Project 365: 45/365

Mega happy!
Some random stranger thought I am a student! #big-big-grin

Mega suay!
My 3P bag broke for the fourth time! #fed-up

Mega relieved!
My first presentation after 10000 thousand light years since I last presented, went okay!

Mega fat!
Ate a few heavy meals today!

Mega productive!
Was finally given some work to do and I feel really good about being able to actually do something real, rather than knowing concepts from theories.

Mega melted!
My husband Aaron Yan (just go along with me please)'s first hit from his second album is finally out! It is mega ultra nice, touched my heart so deeply with his voice! Fun fact: He wrote the lyrics for this song! Check it out!

Mega excited!
Bf's bringing me to watch Hotel Transylvania (not for free because I couldn't win any movie passes boohoo) this Friday! Heard it was nice and this kinda animation is MY THING yo!

Mega troubled!
Haven't rent car for convocation yet! It's gonna be costly so Imma file up my bankruptcy application first!

Mega worried!
Bestie's grandmother passed away. Hope she's doing ok and complete her fyp soon! I'm sure her grandmother was proud of her. And #soulmate's health. Used every possible way to get it into her head but it just won't work.

Alright this is what's going on in my mind today. What? You don't give a damn? Neither does my bf fml.  

Project 365: 44/365

There's a thing about me and strangers.

While I don't enjoy engaging in a conversation with strangers (thus making me socially awkward T.T), I tend to reveal everything about myself if they can ask clear question.

For example if you ask me what do I do for a living, I will answer I work in IT industry. But if you continue asking which field I specialize in, which company I work for, I WON'T BE ABLE TO FREAKING NOT TELL YOU.

Just now I was feeling a little lazy to make dinner, so I went to the nearest restaurant to order takeaway. Turned out the restaurant was closing, but they were willing to make the last bowl of curry mee for me LOL.

As I sat down and wait, the restaurant owner came and chatted a while. Within 15 minutes, she knows where do I come from, where's my company location, which uni I was studying in, did I take PTPTN loan or not, and PHONE NUMBER.

I mean,

WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH ME?

Ok it's not like she might be a bad guy or anything. But incidents like this happen TOO DAMN OFTEN! I once revealed my life story to a bus driver because he asked clear questions! He asked about my hometown, my current location, my love story wtf wtf, my family, my work and where I was going!

This is what's going on with me:

The awkward moment when you couldn't take too long to think of a lie or a way to go around the question, that you spilled the truth instead.

So basically, I was too socially awkward that I couldn't handle the awkwardness of taking too much time to answer question but yet my brain couldn't process so fast to come up with a lie or a way to go around the question, that I revealed my whole life to strangers.

Thank God I wasn't conned and nothing bad happens to me! *touch all possible wood around me with affection*

Well..what else can I say? I have faith in humanity HAHAHA! Yea I know I still gotta fix that!

Alright. Ciao!

Project 365: 43/365

Collection of my Dad's joke (Malaysian Chinese's style)

1.  Twin1: My friend is working in Starbucks as part timer now.
    Dad: Oh then that kopitiam pays him how much?
    Us: WHAT KOPITIAM?
    Dad: Starbucks sells coffee right? Shops that sells coffee=kopitiam la!

2. Twin1: Nah, I bought 4 cups of Chatime. Pick one for yourself.
   Twin2: Alright! I want the one with black pearl. *grab*
   Dad: *grab from Twin2 and sip* What's so great about this? Ask your
   mother to make tong shui with tang yuan (glutinous rice), and buy
   that kind of pipe to sip lah. Same thing only what!
   Us: WHAT PIPE??

    Dad: Neh this kind of straw so thick, look like pipe what.

3. Dad:

     Y U NO BRING UR BROTHERS OUT & INTRO UR FRIENDS TO UR BROTHERS?
   Me: We girls like to chit chat sing k all, how to bring them along?
   Dad: You girls just sing, twin2 can play guitar what!

4. *Radio station playing the famous Oppa Gangnam Style*
    Me: *sing along*
    Twin1: *annoyed* I dunno why everybody said this is a nice song!
    Dad: *being typical chinese who can't perceive the word 'style', and
    pronounce it as sai* Because it is funny! Got hokkien somemore!
    *sing* Oppa KANASAI!

Thanks dad for helping me to get through another post! Challenge accomplished because I blogged, like a joker!