Can't Believe It's Been 3 Years!

Hello blog! I can't believe my last post was from 3 years ago! And looking back at my posts, I'm already a different person at a different stage of life compared to who I was before. Pretty impressed with my persistence to write almost everyday back then :)

Well first of all, what's new is that..

I'M A BRIDE-TO-BE!

Everybody around me went "what?? you?? but wait...really??" when I broke the news hahaha stupid friends laa *plans murder*. To be fair, about 4-5 months ago before the proposal took place, I was still the girl who went "nuh uh I am not gonna get married so soon..now get out of my face and stop pestering me" whenever people (mainly relatives during CNY) ask me when will I tie the knot.
I guess the biggest turning point is when I went away for the longest time with my gf to Seoul (fine it was just 10 days but it felt like forever T_T). I suddenly realized how much I was pampered by him that I have almost never felt insufficient for a long long time. One of his favourite lines would be "aiyo see la I pamper you too much d until you are so spoiled now", to which I would always eagerly disagree and defense myself.

That trip became such a revelation to me and made me look at my relationship seriously. My relationship principle has always been that "you complete me" is an utter bullshit. In my mind, I wanted to be a whole person, a capable adult, before I can leave my parents as core family unit and build my own. I believed in "two complete human being coming together as one". And hence I was always reluctant to even allow my train of thoughts to travel to a place called marriage, a place which is totally unimaginable to me at the point of time. I was just..not there yet. I have expectation for myself that I have not achieved, to be that wholesome adult that I was hoping to be. And I have to be that person before I step into marriage.

But then I realized, we are not perfect and we will never be. I thought I was getting there soon because I felt like an independent and sufficient person back then, and it wouldn't be too long before I am ready. And that trip..was a big hit to me. I realized I felt sufficient because of the way he loves me, takes care of me and (behold......) completes me. *chills*

I don't know how much truth is in "you complete me" relationship quote. But to not disagreeing it anymore, is indeed eye-opening to me and allow me to accept it's time to take things to the next step, not letting unrealistic expectation to get in the way of being together with the only person I'd rather be with for the rest of my life.

So yeap. Here we are, stuffing ourselves with food unlike other bride/groom-to-be. #thuglife #foodislovefoodislife <3