The Civil Duty

No word can describe how I feel right now at this moment.

Few months ago when I officially joined my current company, my dedicated supervisor brought me to the post office near my office to register as a voter. Today I am filled with gratitude for his action and because of him, I was able to cast my vote and contribute to the political revolution which is happening right now.

And thanks to my colleague aka coursemate, JW who educated me all about the current issues and political news, about parlimen structure whatsoever (which we've learnt in Form 6 but I remember none of it #shame).

They both taught me why is it important to know, and to vote. It is not about whether it concerns you, it is about justice (like how you admire the Avengers, Iron Man all that heroes). I'm extremely disgusted by the very fact that some Malaysians can be bought off by monetary promises. But at the same time, think about all the other Malaysians who stood up for justice and plead for clean election, doing their duty to make sure justice is served.

I'm so awed.

No matter what happened tonight, I know that justice is right there. And we don't need superhero for that.

May the end of the day brings a better tomorrow.

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我听着她说，关于痛苦的一切。

听着听着，我在想，她的感受，我能懂几成？

然后海啸的来临，改变了我。

她说过，家人健在，有爱人宠爱，朋友成群，工作顺利，可是痛苦还是可以从坚固的围墙一点一点地渗进来，让她无处可逃。明明万千宠爱于一身，有什么资格说很痛苦？

而我，在这一刻，感同身受。

Happy Birthday to you aka LANCI Fong!

I wana take this opportunity to ss wish you a very Happy Birthday by singing to you one of your favourite songs, which was your ringtone, your non-stop-replay song during that time, and which it drove me crazy HAHAHA.

Nah, Happy Birthday to you, LCF!

HAHAHA!

Update:

Walao this girl really lanci! Sing half song she didn't accept, demanded full song instead. Had to quickly re-sing in case it is past 12am.

And I just realised I really didn't gave her much patience when she just wouldn't stop singing/playing this song. Because I didn't know the last part of the song (because I would either cut her off or blast my own song hahaha), as if I've never heard it before LOL. Sorry ah I 慎重地向你讲soli! Hahaha Happy Birthday! 18 forever!

Holy Week post 1#

Owh my goodness gracious I haven't been blogging for like a month @@

As usual there is nothing going on with my life. It's just work, Running Man, and sleep. But I do have something that I wana share.

This week is the Holy Week in Christian's calendar, which is the week before Easter. I didn't really take it seriously until today, when it suddenly came to me that I've been living in bliss and blessings.

Because I have all the people I've ever cared about around me. And I thank God for that.

I dunno what's wrong with me but I've always been the kind of person who yearns for good relationship with people whom I care about (maybe that's why I'm socially awkward when it comes to socializing, because I simply didn't care about them LOL #self-discovery). When things go wrong in a relationship, I'd feel as if the world is crumbling down around me. Seriously it really does make me feel that way.

And then I told myself I must grow up and grow out of this. I can't be expecting mutual love from everybody I care about because we are all different individuals with differences (and that person might not want my affection anyway lololol).  Might as well just give up trying so hard just to keep a relationship real and genuine.

But then I asked myself, why should I give up the ability to love for a person who doesn't appreciate love? Love itself is beautiful and not wrong.

So instead of not trying, I try even harder by not trying too hard HAHAHA confusing anot! I wouldn't say I am doing a great job, but I'm working on it, and it's been going great.

For example, I didn't know my best friend whom I've known for 11 years dislike loh mai fan (translation: glutinous rice) and went ahead and bought her that as breakfast. She gave it away to someone else wtf and told me she would have eaten if it is apam balik (do not hesitate to google this yourself wtf). Normally the tried-too-hard me will emo for a long time wondering why can't she just accept my offer. But the new and improved me (cheh wahh) sulked for 5 seconds (literally) and moved on happily knowing a new thing about her.

If there is no love, I would have thought that she is a person who is lack of social grace (chinese: 不会做人) and rejected her in my heart. Or if I try to hard, I would be upset that she doesn't accept what I did for her and end up having thorn in my heart.

All these are possible because of God. God himself is love, and He loves me so much that I am also able to love. Nothing is perfect and smooth in life but through these rough patches and difficult times, God made sure I can grow and learn, to love a little more and unconditionally.

Without me realizing, I have all these people whom I cared so much giving me so much blessings and love.

Honestly, I'm so blessed.

Thank you God, for giving me the ability to love, and actually believe in love.

Being a Filial Daughter

First, I was forced to ffk (aka bailed on) dinner with Bo and JH because I had to go support my mum on her singing competition. MY GAWD IT WAS A DISASTER!

Ok if you're a Malaysian (or to narrow it down, a Ipoh-ian), you would know many Chinese senior citizens put in a lot of effort on singing. So there is this society at Menglembu (a town in Perak), they have a singing class for senior citizens. My mum went and joined, and they encouraged her to take part in this singing competition to get experience.

We've heard my mum's singing, and no, we don't wana hear it over the microphone in which her singing will be magnified 10000000 times. HAHAHA. My hater brothers "coincidentally" had outings to go to and couldn't support my mum during the competition day. #Ihatethemsosomuch

So being a filial daughter as I am, I dragged my dad along to support my mum hahaha #filial-only-to-mum. When we reached, he literally pushed me into the crowd and escaped! $%#$%#$%@$# SO SMART! No wonder I am a smart person HAHAHA smart genes from dad.

Anyway, my mum was the 22nd contestant and when I reached, the 8th contestant was singing. MY GOSH MY EARS METAPHORICALLY BLEED OK wtf and I didn't win the lucky draw ish. When it was my mum's turn, my dad came in miraculously to cheer for her. I screamed and clapped so hard until the other contestant aunties stared at me LOL. They were probably jealous =P

After my mum, we found out that there's another 20 contestants to go. Without second thought, we immediately say goodbye to my mum and go home hahaha because she went with another car to my cousin's house for make up. Thanks ar jie jie! They dressed me up for most of my important events one #bow

So yea..I am a filial daughter.

The Effect of Working Life

My gosh work is really straining all of my energy!

Everyday I come back from work I just stare blankly into my future computer screen and turn off my brain. #ultimate-zombie-mode

Actually it's not like I know more and can do more, it's just that the amount of my usual simple task has increased. Boss has been pestering me about upgrading my skills because I've been working for half a year and I'm still at the same place as I was when I just started fml fml fml.

I have to admit I am having a really tough time juggling all my work and my duties. Maybe because I didn't have working experience with ADULTS lololol #private-tutor's-first-world-problem. You know how we get butterflies in our stomach when we are anxious? I feel that every night before I go to sleep. I am just so anxious about what will happen the next day, and whether or not I can handle it. It's been going on for a while and so I have to do something about it.

How?

Now I wake up every morning thinking about how much I've grew since the day before, and how I can grow more today.

Because, sedikit sedikit, lama lama jadi bukit! (continue rocking my awesome Malay language woot woot)

Hees

Project 365: 141/365

There was a man.

And a woman, with mental retardation.

They met, got married despite the objection from both families, and had two kids.

As soon as the kids were born, they were taken away from them because there is no way the couple can raise the kids with their financial situation and the fact that the woman needs special care.

The man lived his life in poverty but he never stopped working hard, and caring the people he treasured. Now that this woman came into his life, it never occurred to him that she is a burden. He brings her to work, take care of her and stand up for her when everybody else despise her.

Well it is not easy. Bringing her to work caused him to lost a few jobs. Taking care of her takes up so much of his energy. And the constant mockery from his close ones is also too overwhelming.

"See how miserable he is!"

"Being a wife is to take care of the family and she couldn't even manage herself."

"Wonder how they get through everyday.."

Yes he has to listen to all these everyday, and yet..

At the end of the day, when people ask who is she, he'd look into her eyes and say, "she's my partner.". She'd smiled and they'd leave holding hands, as if nothing will ever break them apart.

Who are we to say that they are not happy?