Project 365: 26/365

So..I've been playing around with my blog to change things and all. You're currently looking at my new version of blog. Same design but just updated HAHAHA

But damn la I have no habit of recording things ever! So yea..I can't show you the difference between this version and the previous one. #punch-my-chest

Anyway, if you've been reading my blog, you would notice my theme was blue, white and PINK. Fyi, Debbie is my blog manager/designer. I've asked her for this favor to settle my blog design so I can be motivated to blog in ma little cute space LOL.

My request was that I wanted blue and white theme. Because BLUE IS MY FAVOURITE COLOR oh don't worry about the caps lock I just wana make it clear to you so if you happen to feel like giving me a small gift or something you can get it in BLUE but yea it's nothing..no big deal really #cunning

Ish got diverted. I was saying..I love blue and I think blue goes best with white. I left everything else to Debbie to decide because I just wanted to write. It then turned out great, informal and cheeky, just the way I liked it.

Everything was great, rainbows and unicorns. But whenever I visit her blog and come back to mine, it's like writing on the same style of blog. As in Debbie left her trace in my blog, and it doesn't portray who I am. I mean..seriously..do you see any pink-ish characteristic in my writing?

So finally I couldn't take it. I changed everything pink into blue and I want my blog to be very blue-ish til you're annoyed wtf nawww la I don't mean it oneee I just really really REALLY love blue! #annoying-blogger-girl

So yea. It is now finally more me, less Debbie HAHAHA I still think our style is similar and we like almost the same thing..who ask us to be #soulmate right!

Project 365: 25/365

Next Friday is the last day of my internship. Three years of university life past within a blink of eye! Passed through exams, Final Year Project and internship LIKE A BOSS! Meh. More like a loser

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I've learned a lot of lesson the hard way. I've gone through most of the possible things an Asian student can most probably go through. It makes me who I am today, and I thank every-freaking-body who came into my life. My life's damn awesome because of you, because of all the happenings! I don't regret having you and having those moments with you =)

But I think one thing I regret the most is not travelling around Borneo.

Due to financial constraint, I couldn't even survive on PTPTN spending only on food (and maybe one or two outings) fml. Everytime during sem break I tend to do 'charity-based' work LOL so I couldn't save much money for my own personal use.

And also I am very very bad in managing my money. One day I have 50bucks, the next day it would be gone and I would have no idea how it happen. Cy attempted to make me a finance management notebook because I saw one cute notebook in an online shop and gave myself an excuse to buy it to record my finance bullshit one, cy saw right through me and stopped me from buying, and she wanted to make me one.

Here's the thing. I wanted a notebook like that just because it was cute. But if my friend is gonna go through all the trouble making it for me to manage my finance then I will HAVE TO use it but I DON'T WANT TO hahahaha so I tried to change topic and divert her attention whenever she thought of a design or wana look for material. Aaaaaand we graduated and parted hahaha!

So yea..I've never travel to Borneo. Few weeks ago when I was planning my convo family trip, I came across Semporna, a place at Sabah.

Whoa totally blew my mind away! Imma go there one day! WAIT FOR MOI!

Another thing I regret is that I've never climbed Mount Kinabalu. If you know me in person you would have laugh at me so hard your stomach burst wtf. Because my body is FULL OF FAT THAT THE ONLY VISIBLE THING YOU CAN SEE IS MEAT.

Probably like this, but less energetic. Come on wey this dude is like so active and all. I can't even last three minutes of his adventure #shame

I will never have the stamina to do this. I tried exercising by going up to 13th floor by stairs and by the end of the exercise, I just winded up go back and EAT MORE THAN USUAL because it was too exhausting.

It would be a really great achievement and I would be proud of myself if I can pull this off. But maybe..just maybe..I don't really care about this achievement and stuff..you know..#look-somewhere-else

If you're fit, with stamina, exercise regularly, optional:got muscle (you're probably gay based on government's given guideline to identify gays), I guess it is no harm trying this out. It'll be fun! =)

Project 365: 24/365

I'm currently watching this drama called "Absolute Darling" Taiwan version.

It's a story about a girl who's lonely and desperate for love, surfing the net during midnight scouting for something to grab her attention. And then she stumbled upon a site which sells boyfriend robot wtf sound so dumb describing like this but actually it is still quite nice one!

The story line is same old same old lah..where the robot suddenly learn human's feeling, and try to turn from being a robot to real human being.

The manufacturing company was trying to come up with formulars and algorithms to configure perfect love. What we'd normally do is mock its doings and say 'Haiya not possible one lah they gila meh!' #oppa-Malaysian-style.

But look around you.

Many people are so afraid of love, and the hurt feeling that comes with it. And then, they turn off their emotion, not offering love and not believing in love.

Behold, human. Your selfishness and cruelty has successfully created robots among us. Good job being a scumbag.

Project 365: 23/365

Scenario: When you're presented with two gift boxes with different size (with different gift inside), with the guarantee that the bigger box has high value gift, the smaller box might or might not have higher value gift, and you're to choose the box that brings more value to you, which would you choose?

Would you choose the bigger box since you've been assured with the high value gift, or would you take the risk and choose the smaller one?

Risk taking is an entrepreneurial spirit that leads you to success.

But can we say not taking risk makes you a failure? Can we say not taking risk makes you lower than risk takers?

Wanting a simple and secured life is one's choice. It all depends on how one perceives successfulness. Maybe his/her sense of successfulness is to live a secured life.

Taking risk is a knowledge. You have to work hard to assure yourself that choosing smaller box is not a risk.

Risk. Uncertainty. Fear. Lack of faith.

They are all connected.

When you have no faith in your idea and your ability, when you are not sure whether it will work, when you have fear for failure, when you're not making the choice because you believe in it, but because you HAVE TO, you are not taking a risk. You are just placing a bet. You are gambling.

Because if you did sufficient amount of research, finding out facts, enhancing your own skills, believe that your idea will work, it is not taking a risk anymore. It is more like doing what you truly have faith in, without any doubt. It only appear like risk taking to people who didn't work on it and understand it like you do.

You won't win every bet you've placed. Eventually you'll need skills, instead of luck.

Project 365: 22/365

I tried to write this post with only "kjdnfjhdfjdklfdfj" all the way and this is the time I wish I have no readers so nobody would find out and I'm still fulfilling my Project 365 HAHAHA #self-delusion

I'm currently reading a book named "Big Girl" by Danielle Steel. There's one part from the book that I really like. It sounded like this:

She felt different all her life, out of step and she tried so hard to conform. But now, they are all going out into a world where they would be all different, where no one would fit in, where they had to be themselves to succeed, and follow their own paths.

How true!

When we were in our teens day, we seek the sense of belonging, doing all we can to fit in, and feel terribly out of place when we are different, afraid to be known as 'weirdo'.

And then we learn that 'different is good'. We have to learn how to look nothing like our peers. And we constantly need to prove a point that we are special, telling people to take it or leave it.

Ah life. Forever makes us do the mainstream thing.

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Fyi, I come from a small city in Malaysia, Ipoh. The public transport there suckx to the very max. If you wana go around, you can only rely on self transport. That's why I was thrilled to learn that I can go almost anywhere I want in KL/PJ by public transport, without relying on anybody.

But the universe failed me.

I still can go anywhere I want, provided if I turn off my sense of time or punctuality. I will be late for practically every outing but being late doesn't seem like an issue for anyone here (except for me getting late for work and make yj wait for 999999999minutes wtf). I can't even plan my travel time and estimate my journey because the bus schedule is unpredictable GRRRRRRRRR!

The best thing is, to get to an area just 15-20mins from your place, because the train route f-ed up, it'll take you 2hours to reach WHY LIKE THIS LA YOU TELL ME!!! And I can do nothing but day dream thanks to my motion sickness! Damn unproductive you know!

I'm sure I'm not the only spoilt brat dissatisfied citizen who complained.

So what's your view on Malaysia's public transport system?

It's ok..comment away! I reassure you this is not my attempt to drag you with me should I get into trouble. #cunning

Project 365: 21/365

I was never a fan of sweet stuff. The reason why I'm fat is never about eating too much sweet snack or dessert (unless you wana count the countless cups of Vico/Milo that I took but I don't even like their sweetness! #denial).

I love salty food VERY MUCH but I am not ham sup ok if you know what I mean! Ok la the word 'ham'=salty in chinese and ham sup=horny. #lame

Living within walking distance from Paradigm Mall gave me the opportunity to haz SnowFlake OMFG IT IS THE NICEST THING EVER ALTHOUGH I AM TYPING IN CAPS LOCK TO EXAGGERATE! It's like having all my favourite chinese style desserts in a single bow! Every spoon fed into my mouth (just a method of describing ok I self-feed one #forever-alone.jpg) is soooooooo soothing! I can eat this every day. Meh just kidding. I don't wana grow annoyed to it. LOL

And I oso had the opportunity to try Auntie Anne's pretzel. #out-of-word

Seriously. #out-of-word.

It was like heaven burst in my mouth. 'nuf said.

No picture ar pigi google yourself HAHAHA #lazy-blogger

And today I enjoyed my Sunday sitting down and haz blueberry cake. I took time to enjoy the cake, taking only a small bite each time, accompany with nice hot jasmine tea. It was so peaceful, and it made me feel thankful for things in life (although my air bed DIED on me, leave me sleeping on cold hard floor now..LITERALLY). It was as if..the wounds on my heart were comforted. And that it hurts less.

Funny right? It doesn't even make any sense. It's just food that doesn't do good to your health. But well, I just experienced the magical moment. So..I duno. I just loved it. *shrug

I'm not saying eating sweet dessert/food is good ok! Again, MODERATION. Know what you're doing. how much you're eating, so you won't end up like me. Well I can post a picture of my gigantic tummy as your benchmark but I'm afraid it might scared (or scare? grammar nazi please!) you off that you don't ever wana read my blog anymore #paranoid

Maybe all we need is just a break. To enjoy and appreciate what we already have.

#zen-mode

Project 365: 20/365

Woohoo I finally have something to blog about!

So the LOOPies had a meet-up with Refuge for the Refugees (RFTR) guys to discuss about our first project with them.

We were chilling at Starbucks while waiting for them, catching up with each other and chit chatting. And then a group of youngsters barged in! They looked so young and energetic! #old-me

And then they introduced themselves and started telling us how they founded Refuge for the Refugees (RFTR). Good news is that they are trying to go NGO! Hope they can sort it out asap and they can start expanding the cause to other institutions.

Anyway, the discussion went AWESOME! Everybody was giving their input, the RFTR guys were doing their best to give us the context and help us understand what can or cannot be done. I really admire what they are doing. Get this, they don't just give all the big talks but not work done. They actually go around to settle things and make something out of nothing! And they devotedly volunteer themselves in Chin's Education Center and teach the kids EVERY WEEK. Seriously man..what the hell I was doing when I was 18?! Definitely not this!

Some of us adult (#okay.jpg have to admit la what to do) go through so many phases of life, strive for excellent grade, try to involve ourselves in school activities to learn soft skills, just so one day we can offer what we have to the society one day. And they just skipped all these phases and go directly to contributing for a good cause, though they are only 18 and are freshmen in college.

I realised when we bow down less to the reality, we are one step closer to our dream. If only we take a break from all the things we were SUPPOSED to do, like getting good grades, getting a soul sucking but pays damn well's job etc etc, and focus on why we are here on Earth, maybe..just maybe, your little break could help a group of people in need.

So dear readers, if you are interested in lending a helping hand (in ANY way, even just sharing their page or message!) to this group of inspiring young people with their good cause, please join us in the League of Ordinary People (LOOP) or their group, Refuge for the Refugees (RFTR). Do follow us on our Twitter to virtually join in our discussion and share our thoughts! Come join don't shy shy!